Chapter 26: Enjoy Everything! (2025)

Well, i think this is my first time to post something like this in public space. Do some recap of wtf is happen to me in this year. Ofc, this post is intended for myself. But, you can read it too. Just enjoy this long-ass yapping of mine. lmao

Actually i always give a title for every year by a chapter as mark to remind me wtf is happen in that year.

Well, well, well. It is very tough journey when i recall that years, but somehow i survived, lol. -glad-

I know my english not that good, but you know that it is so much comfortable to use foreign language when talk about our feelings. Cause it is less embarrassing, at least for me.

I do know where to start, so i just write whatever i remember.

Got Hospitalized

Exactly today last year, this happen to me.

It is just a lifetime experience. In the middle of night around to 2 AM, i go to hospital alone by myself using bike while endure the pain in my upper belly (?), later i know it called heartburn (huh?).

Well, during that moment i can’t helped by laughing at myself. like wtf is this, i’ve no idea at all. And the timing too, i a bit afraid like the hospital is closed because it is around new year holiday (?)

I even post it as a joke new achievement unlocked, lmao.

It is not just happen once, but like 2 or 3 times after that, like once a month and every time it happen i just ah, shit! here we go again, lol.

Every time i visit the hospital the doctor just gimme a little injection, wait for a while the the pain is gone. They said it is probably just like gerd . But, i doubt it. Cause come on man, i don’t think i am have such a problem with eating.

Tldr; it is not a gerd , ikr! And it is revealed after i got hospitalized. Well, what an experience! -shocked-

My Kisah Died

Well, it is a my laptop. lmao

But, not just a laptop it is my kisah -cry-

And the sentence Teknisi sudah mengusahakan maximal feel emotional and dramatic for me -sobbing-

I’ve dreamed that kind of laptop for so long, like literally browsing it in internet then watch the review on youtube, etc. Then saying when yh every time ☹️

I still remember the first time i got it. Like how can i forgot the day when my dream come true!

The my first reaction at the time finally i can have it felt unreal, like still can’t process anything. I even don’t use it immediately the day i buy it, because my mental is not ready enough 👉👈

The day after, while i start to using it my hand so shaky and i even got cold sweat. I just very nervous to use it. 👉👈

Thank you for all the beautiful memories we’ve been through together, dear my kisah~

On screen Experience

Though, i spend most of the time in life just in front of screen especially alone in my room, but most of the time idk what i’m doing time just flies by, lmao.

Well, i won’t talk about that any further. Instead i’ll talk about game, movies, anime, etc that i experience from screen.

Ofc, i play games. most of the i play valorant, though i hardstuck on gold, lmao.

Here some stats from flashback, yes i’m nAts wanna be. lol

Play with my bestie 😎 (just ignore the ign)

Aside from valorant, there is another notable games i played this year. And for the first time i buy game at full price, cause usually i buy games at the cheapest price like after 70-90% discount, lol.

Is it worth the price? Hell yeah.

First game is Split Fiction, i could say i buy it cause i FOMO, because at that time i watched game’s review they say the game so good. Then when streamer play it, they seemed to really enjoy it, lmao.

It is a co-op game that you need to play with your friend, i play it with my lil bro. I think we enjoy playing it but not finished yet, i think just 2/3 level left. Anybody want to play with me? Just hmu 👉👈

What i can say about the game is absolute cinema ✋😮🤚

Like you play multiple games inside one game, because as each level changes the character you play and the theme of the world changes.

The storyline is straight-forward, you don’t need to explore that much to find any collectible or leveling your character to finish the game. Personally, i like it because it feel like we don’t need to put too much energy to play. Just grab your controller and enjoy the game.

Second game is the one and only, this year GOTY that in total win 9 categories in The Game Award! Clair Obscur: Expedition 33

What i can say about the game is truly an amazing work of art ✋😭🤚

The gameplay, the story, and music is all 10/10.

For me it is not overrated at all, All the praise and achievements are well deserved.

I really love the story which is themed about how to deal with grief, can’t count how many time i cried while playing the game. -sobbed-

But, there is a thing. That was first time experience for me to cried and then immediately need to focus again to fight the boss that can 1 hit killed my character, lol. Annoying but worth to experience.

My favorite cut scene ofc the Lune Speech (spoiler edit) that gave me goosebumps.

My favorite music are the boss soundtrack Une vie à t'aimer and Une vie à peindre (both spoiler edit).

I also love the art style, which feels very French, with flowers and the Eiffel Tower. They are french developer anyway.

For the gameplay itself, i feel the developer gave us freedom to craft our own playstyle to finish the game. Like we can follow the story first or go to explore, focus on crazy one-shot build or just want to rely on parry only, just play casual or hardcore, etc.

Already too much glazing, lmao.
Well, last thing. I choose Maelle ending. 🙂

This section already so long, lol.

Let’s continue with movies. I’ll try to keep it short

Alright, start with Sore: Wife from the future which i could say has similar theme with Clair Obscur: Expedition 33 about how to deal with grief. Yeah, i cry a lot again. -sobbed-

Both of them also has 3 act, Sore has Jonathan, Sore, Waktu and COE33 has Gustave, Verso, Maelle. So i can’t helped but connected each others.

I know the movies has sci-fi side about time-looping, time-looping, the parallel worlds. But, tbh idc at all about it while i watched the movie. I really focus about the relationship between the Sore and Jonathan.

There is 3 scene that i remember got me.

1. Sore nosebleed, then she start the looping : Like how big her love to Jonathan? until she still want to choose Jo over and over again. Especially if we assume every time she looping, she feel the pain of death. Damn. Jika aku harus menjalani sepuluh ribu kehidupan, aku akan selalu memilihmu. Easier said than done, especially in real life. I was there before, and portraying Sore as myself past. Suddenly my tears flowed. -cry-

2. Whenever you ready. I’m here : Sore back to Jo after she gave up and go away. Then she realize all she need to do just stay by Jo side, no need to force him to do anything. Just give him trust, accept him, and genuinely be present for him. I wish i was Jo, that has Sore. -cry-

3. Finally the meet : Well, yap that’s the peak. Finally Jo find his longing. -sobbed-

Next, Tinggal Meninggal the movie not much hyped like Sore. But, the movie got many achievement at JAFF!

Definitely the movies is that good!

Not much i could say, but i really like their dark joke and Gema it is just portrayed of me. lmao.

Last, My Beloved Stranger (知らないカノジョ) japanese movie which starring Milet it is her first movie >_<

Her acting was so good! The Song she sang in the movie really touched my heart, especially the one at the end.

As i remembered the story about sacrifice that you wont realize it until you experienced yourself. Then after you understand how much she sacrificed for you, would you still force her to choose you? more or less the story goes like that. The ending really got me, again. -sobbed-

Well, there is many more movies, but think 3 is already too much.

Okay, last anime series. Only contains new title, not a sequel.

In short, i will just write the title and my opinion about it.

1. Orb: On the Movements of the Earth : The literacy is a miracle, because it can connecting minds across time. The freedom to access all learning materials is such a blessing, especially now when we can find anything in internet. Compared to back then when. we had to go far just to get a piece of knowledge.

2. Gachiakuta: Anime about thrash, typical shounen anime. But the background story feel fresh for me. The ability is also feel unique, it is come from the object that you really cared.

Well, I think only two new title anime i watched this year. The rest is just sequel. lmao

Event and Looting

Well, well, well. Event, activity that still excite me. At least force me to out and touch the grass. lmao

Finally this year, i can go to Comifuro. Yeay

As this is my first event, i really focus on looking around the booth. Looking for something interest me.

But, tbh the signal very bad. Cannot meet anyone there, i just feel so tired in crowd alone. Arrive at 11 then i decide to back at 4 pm and I only attend day 1.

Second time i go to Comifuro, i’m not alone

Well, this time i arrive at 8 am even join to count down open gate, and back around 6 pm. Since i’m not alone mentally i feel less tired in the crowd, and it is so much fun.

Most of the looting is just keychain and stickers, but there is some notable book/comic. I’ll also put the artist instagram. The looting combined from both comifuro i attend.

Sick artstyle artprint by Nestvirgo (ph)

School-themed comics, the art and story so good. Some part even touch my heart while reading it by fortecomics

Both has very good art style and story, the comic still continues.

Left: worldwithoutsleep

Right: dnkhamida_

Conan fanart, well it is a kid tho by arutaego04

I think there is the time when you see their art somewhere. Or just me? The SUN project by mimisannn33

Next, another event i attend is one piece orchestra by rumahorkestrajogja

Feel so nostalgic with old song and touched by the beautiful melody from the orchestra.

Next year they planned to do Singeki No Kyoujin themed orchestra 👀

Dandadan themed cafe by akihabaracafe.id

Hope next year they do frieren themed cafe 👀

Last, the g2g festival (last dance they said) by g2gfestival

I used to go concert, but it is postponed. Among all country in their Asia tour, the only postponed country is Indonesia. Whyyy 😭😭😭

But One Ok Rock (their vocalist are siblings) wanna come back again next year??

Come on guys, try to listen their song. From first album until the latest one their song still that damn good. 😭😭😭

Meeting Many People

Guess, at this age where usually we meet our friends? Yep, at their wedding party. lmao

It seems like this year is the most weddings I've attended. ._.

Well, usually i can’t attend that much. Because usually it is on Jabodetabek, which is just too far. But this year, many of the timing just perfect so i can attend it.

It was fun, to meet again my friends after a long time and have a small talk.

Tbh it was first time i felt genuinely happy, i mean i always happy whenever my friends got married. But, there is always the feeling like when yh or like ak jg mw that kind of feeling. -gloomy-

But, now i just chillin’ enjoy everything happen to me and this

Anyway despite of weebs-related event, i also attend another event or i can call it conference?. But, ofc the main purpose to attend it to meet friends and make new friends.

At first i do really scared af to approach new person, but i just do it anyway and turns out is not as scared as i imagine. -glad-

Maybe it is effect of recently i start to watch you know something like pov extrovert ? the video that show pov of we approach the strangers and start a small talk? and it is really courage me to start to do it too.

Idk if it went well or not. But, i feel i start to enjoy small talk. Such an improvement for me. Yeay -glad-

Though i still need a time to recover after some intense interaction like that. It’ll always draining my energy ._.

Another occasion i meet many people is when zerobyte invite me join the gath. Well, we’ve been interacting each other virtually, but never been spending many time in-person.

That was very fun to talk we them, sharing different pov and experience. Really learn a lot from them, thank you for having me!

Also thank you for inviting me to join the project so i can make a joke awal taun dirawat pake bpjs akhir taun bikin soal buat bpjs . lmao

Last, the proudest moment of the year is when i can qualify to the final CTF and attend it! Because it is like one of my dream, go to another city to compete. -proud-

After very long time participating in CTF, qualified to final and can’t attend it. Finally this is it!

I know i won't win, but you know i just want to attend it and experience the atmosphere.

Well, at first i doubt there is someone i know. Because no one on the qualified nickname i familiar with.

But, when meet in-person some of it i know. like we’ve been followed each other in socmed, even in the past we’ve compete each other. So, same similarity in terms of experience (?) or they are my friend's friend. Which make us easy to start to talk. -glad-

Maybe it just 2 days, but it is very memorable for me. Thank you for everyone i met there, who was kind to me. Look how happy he is 😊

I think i already yapping too long, i can’t even remember what i talking about at the beginning. lmao

I don’t know you are you and why you read it all until this point.

Whoever are you, thank you very much for take care of me. 😊

This year very exceptional for me, so many different emotion i experienced. Feeling reconnected to this world and starting to think about continuing to live because it's not that bad.

It is because all of you, every person i’ve met this year no exception, that make feel accepted and existed. 😊

Love you all very emuaaaccch. 🥰😘
Hope we’ve meet again on another occasion. 😊

Lychnobyte - 2025